A Love Affair With Distance Testo

I've lost my voice, I've said all I have to say.
You're thick as porcelain as clear as cellophane.
I miss the nervous shakes, I miss the way it hurt,
The way it killed to think that I had you first.

So then I force a smile, and take the stage
and now my knees are week, I try to concentrate.
I'm losing air with every single breath that I take.
I look into your eyes and see the chemicals,
they're the whitest white, you've become a ghost.
you're dead to me so why can't i let you go?

The phone is like a knife I drive into my ear,
I had a love affair with distance and fear.
The bus is like a hearse driving me from her,
she's the blackest white, she's the perfect curse.

And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie,
you could come down on me.
And if you save my life, how could i survive?
When you're the one that made me this way...