Anymore Testo

He was
Summer surprises, spicy kisses
Hands laced crossing bay bridges
No presents on Christmas
Our wedding rings were spider-neongreen
And that red squishy thing from an arcade by the sea
Skin and bone, brains and brave
An avocado tree and all the humming birds that came
He's a flat tire on the curb
Shattered glass on the freeway But nobody got hurt
He was a bullet
I didn't wanna dodge
But to split straight through me
So I could peer through the bloody wound in my body
And say you were here

And it's not what I wanted
But you're no longer mine
Should've moved on by now
Should've left us behind
I don't wanna love you
But I can't cut the cord
I don't wanna love you
Anymore
Anymore

I've od'ed on fantasies
Of you bursting into roses on my doorstep
Coughing up regrets A bouquet of apologies in hand
Saying "I'm so sorry darling
Can't you understand?"
Our unborn childern
Whisper in my ear
Dangle your last name
Like a promise that I'll never wear
I'm bleeding watercolors
Gone is the furious flutter
Hello hello love, have you moved on to another?
You fold yourself into an origami prince
Convince yourself that one day when it's right you will commit
But I know you better than that baby
Can't you just admit
You don't want a real girl
What you want doesn't exist

And it's not what I wanted
But you're no longer mine
Should've moved on by now
Should've left us behind
I don't wanna love you
But I can't cut the cord
I don't wanna love you
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore

And it's not what I wanted
But you're no longer mine
Should've moved on by now
Should've left us behind
I don't wanna love you
But I can't cut the cord
I don't wanna love you