Undefeated Testo

UNDEFEATEDI've been at odd's with a restless soulI've felt the pain hwenI lost controlI said the words but could not explainThe hurt fades but the scars remainGot myself into situationsIgnored the threats and ministrationsGuilt choked by my last breathI scared myself to deathSo take my tears take all my fucking painI hope you're entertainedI fell prey to my own theatricsBeen diagnosed by the psychiatricsMistakes that i have madeI've left myself betrayedI've lied to those i loveI'd medicate but there's never enoughNo tears for the lives I've wreckedI've lost my self respectAnd now I'm reaching backAnd I'm trying to make things rightAnd through my past I've gained a deeper sightI'm less than proud of what I've doneBut I know I've got to changeSomehow I know it's only just begunBegun to change it's all on meThere's no one else to take the blameBut I'm still caught up in this game