Issues Of Trust Testo

I've, I've, I've (Uh)

I've always been scared of being myself
Of letting my heart speak before I speak
I will rise, but I may fall
And my heart's filled with issues of trust [with my dad ?][0:30]
In my head
I still cannot talk about it
Runnin', runnin' and runnin', and runnin', and run—
I, I (And) Since you left our lives, I'm blaming myself for all the things I said and I never said
Though, I tried, I felt pride 'cause my hearts filled with issues of trust since she—
(since you died, I haven't been able to speak)
(Or talk, I haven't been able to do anything)
I still cannot talk about it, runnin', runnin' and runnin', and runnin', and—
I still cannot talk about it, runnin', runnin' and runnin', and runnin', and—

Feel like I'm in this like endless loop of days
I just keep, you know, goin' and goin' and I just can't wake up from this dream
I still cannot talk about it, I'm runnin' and runnin'
I will make a way