Brand New Testo

Was living life horribly before
Tried compensating for my pain
Don't know the benefits of self doubt
Are my emotions in charge or do I still reign?
Lost all faith, people still have faith in me
Lost all grace, should I live life gracefully?
Everyone hates me, blessing me, blasphemy
Either you hate or bless me, can't do both
Don't have loyalty, everyone thinks I'm heartless
Reaping what I sow, reaping the benеfits Pride is deadly, it makes mе insecure
Resentment, that's one thing I can't cure
The whole world has imperfections
It makes us dreadful, but it teaches lessons
How can I improve as I go further in life?
All I know, nothing is going right
Can I start over? Fresh start, brand new?
Guess not, so what am I going to do?
All I want is to feel empowered
Not in spite of everything I do
Saying that everything that I was before is wrong
Don't care about your opinion if it's not truthful
Been called weak by people who raised me
Learned to handle pain, now, nothing phases me
Getting exhausted from all the losses I took
Life comes at a price
Sometimes, it gives out a bad outlook
Sometimes, it gives out terrible advice
How can I find greatness in life if life's not great?
All I see, all I see is hate Can't rewind time, only move forward
This is real pain, not an essay or foreword
Every day, I feel vulnerable
I'm tired of people saying that I have no honor
Have no honor or respect
Opportunities passed me by, missed my chance
Life brings me down, I get up, keep my stance
I have importance, not impertinence
Deficit, can't define me, have no definition
Been living so inefficiently
All this tension, misapprehension
People bring me down, but I need ascension
My pain extends to everyone else
Can't keep it to myself
Full of misery, my whole life, I been puzzled
Can't use my voice, people don't hear, muzzled
Tried to elaborate on what's happening
Is life supposed to make sense?
I keep contemplating, trying to figure it out
Getting nowhere, ended up where I started
Brand new life, future is still undecided
As of right now, I continue to tread in silence
Life's not going to improve, still full of violence
Fighting for a better way to live
Everyone has to contribute, has something to give
Can't outlive pain, it's too much of a strain
There's pain that's impossible to refrain from
Where I'm from, it's gruesome
Just trying to pursue something, to be great
I'm not looking at what I'm going through anymore
Only goals at the finish line
I know that I'll make it someday, it'll take time
No longer will my past abase me
All negativity aside, it'll no longer degrade me
No longer will my past enslave me
Never stop, persevering daily
Not trying to be the greatest, but the best I can be
I'll rise to my pinnacle, to the top, wait and see
Tired of everyone doubting me
Can't achieve like me, perceive like me
Always asking "Are you going to make it in life?"
Look at me, I made it
How? It's not a mystery
Said my chances were low, look at the probability
Still insane, but have some stability
Done with negativity, treachery
Questioning, always vexing me
Trying to be successful, stop texting me
In shambles? It's not a mess to me
Tried to control me? Put me under a spell? Quit hexing me
Stereotypes? I have a life, have a right, don't arrest me
Need to calm down, someone please help me
Brand new life, negativity uninvited
Going to strive, don't interfere, override
Keep treading forward, keep my stride
Everything's going to be alright